Don't Think You Have It So Bad

"ugh, my phone broke and my mom says i cant get a new 1 for 2 weeks!!1 my life sucks!"

I'm sure this sounds familiar, weather you or someone you know wrote it.

But did you think about anyone else while you typed this?

What about the girl who wears the same clothes everyday? You may think she's dirty, but you may not know she has to live in a car and those are her only clothes.

Or that kid in Africa? You may think "oh hes so lucky he doesnt have to go 2 scool!!1" You may think school is terrible, but those kids are LUCKY to go to school and so are you. Would you rather be doing over 12 hours of beyond hard and exhausting work everyday, and get only food in return? Yeah, don't think you're so unlucky now, do you?

You may not realize how lucky you are to have a cellphone? If you lived in a poor country, you'd be lucky to have a small radio.

"when i can drink im gonna become an alchoholic so i can haz free food from the rehab placez!""when im older im gonna smoke so i can have those gum thingies!1!"

Believe it or not, I actually have heard this from people I know, at my school.

So basically you would rather have to live in a room with someone you don't know, cook food for people you've never met, have a possibly terrible relationship with your family, and have very bad health, all because you want to get free food and a room?

That's just sad.

And you would rather possibly die from lung cancer, just because you want gum that might not even cure you?

"well if they're so bad for you ill just stop using it!"

Ha, no. It's not that simple. Don't think "I can just quit and it'll all be okay."

Because you can't.

You're body get's addicted to it and makes you smoke/drink it.

"oh she acts all sad and is alone all the time cuz she has no frends and shes goth"

This is people's opinion of me.

Yes, I am alone all of the time.

Yes, I have almost no friends.

And yes, I do dress in dark colors.

But~

No, I'm not goth.

No, I don't have any friends.

And no, I don't act sad all of the time.

I do dress in black, yes. But that's because I like it, not because I'm goth.

I don't have many friends because I don't want to. I would rather have a few friends that I know their parents' names than have 15 friends who I don't even know their favorite colors. It is also because I have social anxiety and phobia, and I'm shy and anti social. AND I have major trust issues.

I have no friends because I don't want to be friends with you, not because you don't want to be friends with me.

And guess what?

I seem sad all of the time because I have a lot better of a reason you do.

My mom is a recovering alcoholic and my dad might turn into one soon.

I have a terrible problem with my feet, too. I had a tumor in my back, and they didn't find it until I was seven.

So for 2 years, I was suffering With them having to continue to try to figure out what was wrong.

I had to where painful braces that made my feet ache all day. Night braces that literally woke me up, every night. Crying.

You think you know me so well, well there's more to me then my outer layer.

Don't think you have it so bad.